eleventh october

hey.... itz moooooooonday. friday dah start puase...haiyoh... damn tired ever since i came back from the hospital. they must have drugged my food. how ironic. heh. dunno wat to write actually...itz kinda auto that i switch my pc on when i'm alone in the house. gg out in the evening later. maybe lah. depends on my mood. adek gg chalet...unfair.. tmr's malay ao, then thurs is malay a..... n my three month anniversary.. only three months? seems like a lifetime..doubt he remembers anything. but once u love someone...i dunnolah, u can be so blind and even the most cute guy u've ever seen doesnt make u drool anymore. okay who am i kidding.. u still drool lah, but not so much. :P
i reaali wanna go sleep coz i dont feel very good... am eating choc fudge juz like that.... sinful like hell, especially for my voice, but waddeheck. I WANNA GO TO THE BEACH!!!!!!! hint hint. i dunno watz up wif me and my baby..... no more honeymoon period that's for sure. after promos den we'll sit down and have a looooooooong talk like we're suposed to. have been putting it off for quite some time now.. i realli do feel that i love him, though u guys think itz infatuation. i dont see the need to talk to him for hours at a stretch or meet everyday and coo o my love my darling i love u i miss u letz get married now....itz more of the quiet type of thing...u juz feel it..itz dis warm glow u get when u hear his voice or look at his photo...u juz feel blessed. n after all that's happened he's still there.. i wonder why he hasnt run a million miles away. i asked him if it was out of sympathy.

everything i do (i do it for you) - bryan adams
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all
I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Yeah I'd die for you
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

i love you. cant help it.