twenty-ninth july

yohohum..... went to the nationals yesterday..hafta admit it was a nice day, in spite of getting drenched for... ard 4 hrs or so... the details are not to be divulged..haha.... anyway, i have just discovered that i'm a victim of abuse.. the school obviously thinks i'm superman's wife. well, hello... how the hell am i supposed to enter a competition and also sing during its interval? datz dumb...well watevalah..i've been complaining that i don't have enough exposure..well here it is right smack in front of my face and all i do is complain as if i've just been robbed of a million bucks .. well in the first place if i had a million bucks i wouldn't be studying in this hellhole. and for once in my life i'm actually home at 4.30..this calls for a celebration. and i had another batang today...felt good.

twenty-third july

yo yo yo.. muahaha. i don't speak like that i hope. today is a dumb day..went home straight after school. den i went to hougang mall and flirted with some singtel guy.oh yah..hehe, today a pipe at the canteen got 'dislocated' and water was gushing out of it and the canteen was flooded. funny...like kampung liddat. of course, when there is trouble, a hero would come along....... lol. tmr gg town with amy... see wassup there..suddenly have this craving for ice-cream..the one amy always eats..sigh.. yum.

farhan is an idiot.. his half an hour probably means tmr morning or something.. but otherwise, i'm happy coz my hp is finally functioning...yay. dunno wat else to say so i guess will talk on monday and update you on wat happened in town.

twenty-second july

today's a fucking day, today's a fucking day for you and me... we'd like to say, we'd like to say fuck off lah dey.....

lame and corny yes i noe...but today's a horrible day and it ended very nicely when i came home and my sis told me nek puteh passed away this morning..inna lillah.

 suddenly this has made me sober. life is so fragile..scares me. anyway yesterday i was on pms mode and i got pissed with amy and inez.. itz settled though..i can never stay made at ANYONE for long, even if i try to.. damn..my disadvantage.  i did  astupid thing yesterday..itz not even like the fucking stadium is anywhere near my place... and i was there for barely an hour only.. i think i've finally lost it. or izzit becoz i've finally met someone interesting enough that i wouldn't get bored within 2 seconds? and mats are bastards..most of them anyway..i'll let you know when i find a nice one. and yeah, yet to find a guy who's willing to wait for marriage before he fucks me..or my friends, for that matter. nymphos, all of you. like usher..well to compliment him, at least he has a great bod. drool drool..hah.

twentieth july

did i spell tuwenti-eth correctly? wadeva. anyway, i had my 4 hours of CIP yesterday at suntec...didn't know dikir peeps still recognised me..it was a pleasant surprise when people started hooting.. i hafta admit i miss being in the 'limelight'..shall have the chance next month. i hate 'the reason'...drives me crazy.. dunno y.. irritates the hell out of me. listening to perfect 10.. and now i'm not so sure about that someone anymore..should i proceed any further or leave things as they are? if it happens, it happens... hmmmm...seems like nothing's gonna happen in the near future. i've straightened my hair but to tell you the truth it still looks pretty much the same to me except that it's lost some volume. and it's back to being maximally damaged.
 
 tomorrow the fucking school's gonna celebrate racial harmony day.. then i'm going over to cck stadium to go watch ppl run..i can't be bothered to bring extra clothes..may as well bring my whole wardrobe right.
 
 i haven't packed the stuff for tomorrow yet so i shall hafta do so soon coz knowing me i'll end up bringing the redundant stuff and the essential stuff's all at home gathering dust and what-nots.  i'm going to go get money on thurs... gooooooood. and gotta remember to bring extra extra money tmr coz we're going out..
 
and it doesn't really matter if we don't eat
it really doesn't matter if we never sleep
no it really doesn't matter, really doesn't matter at all
coz we are so young now, we are so young so young.
 
 
are we really that young? one one hand, we are treated like bloddy arseholes without brains yet we're also burdened with increasingly adult worries..what is the world coming to. and i need him. especially now when my world is topsy-turvy.

eighteenth july

dis is one confused idiot. what the hell am i supposed to do? i can't let this chance slip thru my fingers, but on the other hand, easier said than done. i'm conservative, bacon can fry itself before i'd go up to someone.....shit shit....how how? "forget abt it, pretend that nothing happened" seems to be the most plausible thing to do. i wish i was tad bitchier and meaner..how am i ever gonna get him...seems like never..sigh. heart-broken ayu again..does he even like me? hah.

fifteenth july

and it HAS HAPPENED!!!!!!! when you most unexpect it, it comes and tackles you down like some beefy brawny rugby player..yes..i am IN LIKE with someone right now..obviously it isn't love lah, it isn't easy for me to fall in love you know.. finally some excitement in my life. but then again, there are always the complications that come with it. but wateva happens, happens i guess. to hell with the other one. his ego is so big he doesn't even realise itz clouding his vision and everything else. not that i'm such a good girl myself but hey, i tried and he still acts like he's got something stuck up his ass. can't blame me for giving up trying to be a civilised bitch. amy n inez are a bit happier with my new choice but unfortunately it doesn't come easy..there are huge obstacles to overcome and i don't really feel up to it unless something happens soon and even then only if i know itz like...for sure or something..otherwise this would probably end up being a one-off thingy..not that i'm bloody certain of anything anyway..itz just mere speculation and wishful thinking on my part...i do wish it would happen though. but knowing me, i'll never do anything abt it. the ball is in his court. or shd i say the baton?

eleventh july

i am beyond pissed that my last blog wasnt published..it was my most heartfelt one. but i shant try and recreate that. anyway, yes i know i havent been that wonderful a blogger..some days i feel like i gotta tell the world watz gg on, others i feel like keeping to myself..i cant even use actual names. anyway, the euphoria has passed..i am no longer hoping the be THE one. wateva happens, happens. my favourite phase for now. anyway ppl from sabah came over and tmr they're coming again so i shall hafta ask for early leave. recently i've been doing nothing much..flunking hist is still like..ouch so now i'm doing my homework faithfully.. i still have gp then i'm done for the day.. anyway, nothing much has happened in the past few days that's worth mentioning so i shant blabber on. oh ya...my gawd..i was at haig rd the other day wif my family and i was listening to the radio on my hp at the bus-stop when i saw this whole grp of mats wif tattoos...one reaaaaaaalllli cute one was looking at me and he smiled and wave..damnit my dad was there..sigh..melepas. i've just realised how i relish being with bad boys that wateva's happening now, or rather wat happened a few mths ago is such an oddity..well, again, wateva happens happens. i just hope i stay around long enough for that thing to happen. i guess these days i realli need a strong pair of arms to fall back on...i'm losing ground.

heya

today i still have nothing much to say, other than tt i embarrassed myself totally on the way back from raffles city juz now..well it was on the bus actually, going towards sengkang. as u might know, i haven't been feeling well for the past couple of days, then suddenly, i had this urgent urge to cough..i was so afraid it would sound like the phlegmy cough u sometimes hear people have...the kind that makes me turned off.. yah, so i tried to suppress it until i started tearing..realli, i was crying like some sod on the bus..so i had to put up an act and sniffled a bit, wiping the tears away..i swear this nyonya was staring at like i was nuts.. the moment i got off, i walked freaking fast and when all was clear, i coughed to my heart's content...i think i might have some terrible social disorder..i realli do. well itz for me to know anyway.

wassup dooooog

diz is one sick fella here.. haf i realli tt many sins? retribution i itz mildest form..the flu! couldn't sleep for the paz few nights..went to see the doctor.. got scolded again for not coming sooner.. as soon as he saw me he said yu've got a cold right..lolx

dere's skool tmr..argh..at least monday's a holiday.. hooray, hooray..itz a holi-holiday..........

where the hell am i supposed to get inspiration (muakakakaka ya right) to do the stuff? don't feel up to it...as always things get dumped on my waterlogged head ( hence the flu) and when they go wrong, who gets the blame? any takers? oh me!!! sure! darn it, blame it all on me! i'm a tough li'l cookie... i'll survive somehow, nevermind all the bullshit tt i hafta go thru, but i'll scrape thru. notice the sarcasm.