i like this song and at the same time i dont.
one last - taufik batisah
never could imagine life without you
from the moment you walked into my world
never knew how long a loving flame could burn
but losing you has forced me to learn
that we cant change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know its better if we juz let it go
so lets have
c/o
one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to out first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
lets stay here for a while and
cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know
itz better if we juz let it go
everytime i try to take a stand at all
i see yor face again and i fall
in the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
the smell of your perfume i suppose
but we cant change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know its better if we juz let it go
so lets have
baby if we met each other under a different sky
maybe then things would be much better between u n i
we could always hold on to this one special thing we share
but it would be too much for us to bear
we both know
itz better if we juz let it go
how cowardly. or maybe i'm the one who's stubborn. bebeh said this should be my song.
today i was on mc. have tonsilitis. going to sleep soon. lepak wif arif, mul and suhuf again at tamp. tired. talking almost mono-syllabically. cannot sing. argh. doctor scold. damn. can i punch her face?
almost sleeping at pc. nobody online. bored. tmr skool. wed got prac. get baju. fri rehearsal. sat full-dress. tired. need cheering up. damn u.
went to bebeh's houz. acted like maniacs using remote controls as microphones and singing jiwang songs. listened to taufik's cd. ate kfc. ate antibiotics. drowsy like fuck now. yawn.
well nezz......happier times will come for all of us hopefully. i will always be here for ya...... juz call my name, and i'll be there :)
Monday, January 31, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
yadda yadda
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings,
but I know you are here with me now,
We'll make it through,
and I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away,
But I know that this much is true,
We'll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with,
And I wish that you could be the one I die with,
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with,
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it ,
I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away,
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today,
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right,
And though I can't be with you tonight,
You know my heart is by your side
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I dont understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?
daniel bedingfield's if u're not the one. suddenly i like this song. n there was this other post in frenster that was telling guys what they shld do... part of it said that they shd sing to their gals, no matter how bad they are......shhh...this works for me...... although i'll be a little critical, itz so bloody sweet i'll cair.....haha.
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings,
but I know you are here with me now,
We'll make it through,
and I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away,
But I know that this much is true,
We'll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with,
And I wish that you could be the one I die with,
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with,
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it ,
I don't understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away,
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today,
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right,
And though I can't be with you tonight,
You know my heart is by your side
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I dont understand,
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?
daniel bedingfield's if u're not the one. suddenly i like this song. n there was this other post in frenster that was telling guys what they shld do... part of it said that they shd sing to their gals, no matter how bad they are......shhh...this works for me...... although i'll be a little critical, itz so bloody sweet i'll cair.....haha.
still the twenty-seventh lah
was at my frenster thingy den there was this posting which caught my attention.
If a gal cries in front of you,it means that she can't take it anymore.
If you took her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If you let her go, she can't go back to being herself anymore.
A gal won't cry easily,except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A gal won't cry easily,only when she loves you the most,she'll put down her ego.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly.
She's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of you, please don't give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision,you'll ruin her life.
i used to think this stuff was damn corny...but nowadays stuff like this do have a ring of truth to them for me. I used to be this damn hard nut to crack... My sister nana used to say i probably had no feelings coz i never ever cried whatever the situation and i was proud of it. but ever since i've fallen in love with ***** my life has totally changed. i remember talking abt this to aien (or siti to most). Like juz now, i was doing the twist in the corridor with my sis and laughing like a mad woman but when i came in, i took a look at my hp and read the message and suddenly i was a wreck, crying my eyeballs out. and oh yeah, once u tell a girl u love her, dont expect to be frens with her again..things will never be the same again for u. especially if she loved u. n still does.
and if she says she loves you, it means she's prepared to take whatever comes along. of course she'll cry, i myself dont know how to let it out other than cry or sing. and abt that statement abt giving her up, do it if u dont love her...but if u do love her n she loves u....... pls dont..dont destroy ur love.
If a gal cries in front of you,it means that she can't take it anymore.
If you took her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If you let her go, she can't go back to being herself anymore.
A gal won't cry easily,except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A gal won't cry easily,only when she loves you the most,she'll put down her ego.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly.
She's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of you, please don't give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision,you'll ruin her life.
i used to think this stuff was damn corny...but nowadays stuff like this do have a ring of truth to them for me. I used to be this damn hard nut to crack... My sister nana used to say i probably had no feelings coz i never ever cried whatever the situation and i was proud of it. but ever since i've fallen in love with ***** my life has totally changed. i remember talking abt this to aien (or siti to most). Like juz now, i was doing the twist in the corridor with my sis and laughing like a mad woman but when i came in, i took a look at my hp and read the message and suddenly i was a wreck, crying my eyeballs out. and oh yeah, once u tell a girl u love her, dont expect to be frens with her again..things will never be the same again for u. especially if she loved u. n still does.
and if she says she loves you, it means she's prepared to take whatever comes along. of course she'll cry, i myself dont know how to let it out other than cry or sing. and abt that statement abt giving her up, do it if u dont love her...but if u do love her n she loves u....... pls dont..dont destroy ur love.
twenty-seventh january
itz kinda funny sometimes when you think everything's over....then you realise that things have barely scratched the surface of what's to come. N sometimes u know that what you're doing is so wrong but somehow it feels like its the most right thing you've ever done. N falling in love is one of those things that come under that category. I'm not talking abt the repercussions here of course. Syaqir once told me not to let love be my weakness, let it only be my strength. Frankly speaking i'm a little confused about what's happening. But i guess the root of the matter was when people started to want to cook the broth too......
initially it was amusing but lately its making me hot and bothered. i thought the days when i'd cry myself to sleep were over but i guess i'm wrong. In the end i always blame it all on him. I dont usually mean it but it always happens. To tell you the truth i'm very tired from all this so two words to people who arent in this: BUZZ OFF! ( READ: THAT MEANS EVRYONE EXCEPT FOR ME N HIM)
I have practice over the weekend and the whole of next week. They told me i always look fierce.....what can i do? i look fierce and arrogant but i'm really this crazy nut who's juz passionate abt performing n doesnt want the team to be laughed at, that's all. Is that so wrong, for me to want us to look good on stage? I'm being lenient as it is, not asking them to sing one by one, not asking them to project their voices from one end of the outdoor court to the other...... But that's how i managed to get this good... ( which is still pathetic by my own standards) you reap what you sow. I'm not asking for perfection, though i'm a perfectionist when it comes to singing but i was hoping they would put in more effort. Why do something half-heartedly? I'd rather they scrap the whole thing. Ok, diva-esque attitude coming thru here but if u wanna put up a good show then u gotta work right? which is why i find hanging out with the year 3 guys so much more gerek these days.. they're frank and they wont bitch.Yesterday me, arif, mul, suhuf, n rajiv were lepaking at tampines after practice. thank gawd for suhuf and rajiv who came to my rescue by agreeing to join. muahahaha, they were asking me to go skool wif azar since we both stay in sengkang...ya right. we havent even talked b4. that will be the day when i date someone frm my campus...hehehe.i dont like the guys from my batch. they are too concerned with wantin to look cool n wouldnt be caught dead joining something like this. the yr 3 guys r much much more helpful in that sense. nice to tok to oso the fellas. they told me grandmother stories abt ppl in skool n stuf...n wat happened b4 i came in.... damn, nxt yr organising anything will be difficult when they leave. i used to think they were damn stuck up idiots. oops. sorry.
n abt endy, azmi n the rest....... the best thing for me to do is to ignore them right? how dumb but it did not occur to me.
kumasih jua seperti dulu
putaran waktu tak merubah hatiku
terhadapmu..........
sayang
sesungguhnya kutahu
bukan mudah bagimu
semua yang berlaku
akan mengujimu
mengujiku
apa terjadi
usah ragui
hati ini.....
Usah ragui........
doubting someone's love for u is a difficult phase, especially when the honeymoon period is over...some days u wake up n question is all this true or a horrible lie? so u ask ur other half again maybe for the hundredth time. the answer usually remains the same but u still wonder is that really the truth.. initially i'd just take it as it is but now that we've had some sobering experiences i tend to question more. and today i did something but i dunno whether it was the right thing to do or not. i should just involve myself more deeply in the performances and see whether the knots in my personal life will unravel themselves. as bebeh says, breathe in, breathe out. we've been thru worse.
quote given to me by bebeh, dunno where the hell she got it from though : " cinta itu bukan satu pertarungan, bukan sekadar angan-angan, bukan suatu mainan....ianya suci, jadi janganlah takut jatuh cinta.."
i think itz not takut jatuh cinta..more like takut that u'll fall out of love... so u hang on to what's left of it. right now i'm wondering what IS left, n whether there is any point in hanging on to our love or not. wateva it is..........
i love you. a thousand times over.
initially it was amusing but lately its making me hot and bothered. i thought the days when i'd cry myself to sleep were over but i guess i'm wrong. In the end i always blame it all on him. I dont usually mean it but it always happens. To tell you the truth i'm very tired from all this so two words to people who arent in this: BUZZ OFF! ( READ: THAT MEANS EVRYONE EXCEPT FOR ME N HIM)
I have practice over the weekend and the whole of next week. They told me i always look fierce.....what can i do? i look fierce and arrogant but i'm really this crazy nut who's juz passionate abt performing n doesnt want the team to be laughed at, that's all. Is that so wrong, for me to want us to look good on stage? I'm being lenient as it is, not asking them to sing one by one, not asking them to project their voices from one end of the outdoor court to the other...... But that's how i managed to get this good... ( which is still pathetic by my own standards) you reap what you sow. I'm not asking for perfection, though i'm a perfectionist when it comes to singing but i was hoping they would put in more effort. Why do something half-heartedly? I'd rather they scrap the whole thing. Ok, diva-esque attitude coming thru here but if u wanna put up a good show then u gotta work right? which is why i find hanging out with the year 3 guys so much more gerek these days.. they're frank and they wont bitch.Yesterday me, arif, mul, suhuf, n rajiv were lepaking at tampines after practice. thank gawd for suhuf and rajiv who came to my rescue by agreeing to join. muahahaha, they were asking me to go skool wif azar since we both stay in sengkang...ya right. we havent even talked b4. that will be the day when i date someone frm my campus...hehehe.i dont like the guys from my batch. they are too concerned with wantin to look cool n wouldnt be caught dead joining something like this. the yr 3 guys r much much more helpful in that sense. nice to tok to oso the fellas. they told me grandmother stories abt ppl in skool n stuf...n wat happened b4 i came in.... damn, nxt yr organising anything will be difficult when they leave. i used to think they were damn stuck up idiots. oops. sorry.
n abt endy, azmi n the rest....... the best thing for me to do is to ignore them right? how dumb but it did not occur to me.
kumasih jua seperti dulu
putaran waktu tak merubah hatiku
terhadapmu..........
sayang
sesungguhnya kutahu
bukan mudah bagimu
semua yang berlaku
akan mengujimu
mengujiku
apa terjadi
usah ragui
hati ini.....
Usah ragui........
doubting someone's love for u is a difficult phase, especially when the honeymoon period is over...some days u wake up n question is all this true or a horrible lie? so u ask ur other half again maybe for the hundredth time. the answer usually remains the same but u still wonder is that really the truth.. initially i'd just take it as it is but now that we've had some sobering experiences i tend to question more. and today i did something but i dunno whether it was the right thing to do or not. i should just involve myself more deeply in the performances and see whether the knots in my personal life will unravel themselves. as bebeh says, breathe in, breathe out. we've been thru worse.
quote given to me by bebeh, dunno where the hell she got it from though : " cinta itu bukan satu pertarungan, bukan sekadar angan-angan, bukan suatu mainan....ianya suci, jadi janganlah takut jatuh cinta.."
i think itz not takut jatuh cinta..more like takut that u'll fall out of love... so u hang on to what's left of it. right now i'm wondering what IS left, n whether there is any point in hanging on to our love or not. wateva it is..........
i love you. a thousand times over.
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
twenty-fifth january
argh.some people juz dont get it. he wanted to accompany me even though i said no. i mean, if i even knew how he looked like okay lah...but honestly i cant remember. he was so insistent..... i was thinking, come on, i'm not going to die in there. itz juz an eye infection, not like i was going to give birth to his child or something.
anyway, this song is damn catchy..although kinda vulgar.
lose my breath -DC
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my ah ah
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my breath
OohI put it right there, made it easy for you to get to
Now you wanna act like you don't know what to do
After I done done everything that you asked me
Grabbed you, grind you, liked you, tried you
Moved so fast, baby now I can't find you
Ooh I'm startin' to believe that I'm way too much for you
All that talk but it seems like you can't come through
All them lines like you could satisfy me
Now I see where believing you got me
Gave you the wheel but you can't drive me
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my ah ah
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my breath
Ooh
Two things I don't like when I'm trynna get my groove
Is a partner that meets me only halfway, and just can't prove
Take me out so deep when you know you can't swim
Need a lifeguard and I need protection
To put it on me deep in the right direction
Ooh You understand the facts that I'm trynna give to you
You movin' so slow like you just don't have a clue
Didn't momma teach you to give affection?
Learn the difference from a man and an adolescent
It ain't you boo, so get ta steppin'
c/o
If you can't make me say ooh
Like the beat of this drum
Why you ask for some?
You ain't really want none
If you can't make me say ooh
Like the beat of this groove
You don't have no business in this
Here's your papers, baby you are dismissed
so two items again for me. but shiok. n today i was pleasantly surprised when mrs wee was sitting with the three mouseketeers (for the uninformed itz me amy n inez) she was like...r u the girl who sang during the concert laz yr..den i was like, ya.. den she was like o...i like!!! den she was clapping her hands and all.. made my day again... then amy told her i was gonna sing again soon den she asked if i was gonna sing in mandarin..alah, i dont have enuf time to learn one ah..anyway itz not a solo performance though i get to sing without any accompaniment for the first part..i have the dance n the rest of the dikir team to think about also. tmr practice, thurs practice, fri go get the baju, sat practice, sunday practice...get the point? yupz.. no life.
got to thinking that i'm a horrible spender. but for now i'm trying hard to keep in mind that my parents have to slog day in day out n that's what keeps me from becoming a devil. besides i dont like to spend other people's money either. if u've gone out with me u would know that.. i will feel so guilty.... i guess i hafta start working again soon coz i'm starting to feel devilish again. my mum said i'm very high maintenance so i shall work......... i dont even like spending her money... kesian lah. i'm a horrible spendthrift though... used to take taxis all the time. pemalas haram. ok potential husbands now can be seen running like mad away from me. ahaha. n about marriage, i dont intend to marry till i get my degree (provided i dont start singing pro before that) or till i turn 25, whichever comes first.... that's a good 7 years from now..... so i'm relaxing now though itz kinda amusing when relatives ask wen itz my turn. juz now there was this grp of small kids possibly not older than 14 since they were wearing shorts who approached me.. i laughed n said sori dek, i'm at least 4 yrs older than u... guess itz the trend for guys to go out with older women huh. ahahahahahaha. i dont care.
and iiiiiiiiii will always love uuuuuuuuuuu..haha.like tarzan. or jane. watever.
anyway, this song is damn catchy..although kinda vulgar.
lose my breath -DC
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my ah ah
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my breath
OohI put it right there, made it easy for you to get to
Now you wanna act like you don't know what to do
After I done done everything that you asked me
Grabbed you, grind you, liked you, tried you
Moved so fast, baby now I can't find you
Ooh I'm startin' to believe that I'm way too much for you
All that talk but it seems like you can't come through
All them lines like you could satisfy me
Now I see where believing you got me
Gave you the wheel but you can't drive me
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my ah ah
Can you keep up baby boy?
Make me lose my breath
Bring the noise
Make me lose my breath
Hit me hard
Make me lose my breath
Ooh
Two things I don't like when I'm trynna get my groove
Is a partner that meets me only halfway, and just can't prove
Take me out so deep when you know you can't swim
Need a lifeguard and I need protection
To put it on me deep in the right direction
Ooh You understand the facts that I'm trynna give to you
You movin' so slow like you just don't have a clue
Didn't momma teach you to give affection?
Learn the difference from a man and an adolescent
It ain't you boo, so get ta steppin'
c/o
If you can't make me say ooh
Like the beat of this drum
Why you ask for some?
You ain't really want none
If you can't make me say ooh
Like the beat of this groove
You don't have no business in this
Here's your papers, baby you are dismissed
so two items again for me. but shiok. n today i was pleasantly surprised when mrs wee was sitting with the three mouseketeers (for the uninformed itz me amy n inez) she was like...r u the girl who sang during the concert laz yr..den i was like, ya.. den she was like o...i like!!! den she was clapping her hands and all.. made my day again... then amy told her i was gonna sing again soon den she asked if i was gonna sing in mandarin..alah, i dont have enuf time to learn one ah..anyway itz not a solo performance though i get to sing without any accompaniment for the first part..i have the dance n the rest of the dikir team to think about also. tmr practice, thurs practice, fri go get the baju, sat practice, sunday practice...get the point? yupz.. no life.
got to thinking that i'm a horrible spender. but for now i'm trying hard to keep in mind that my parents have to slog day in day out n that's what keeps me from becoming a devil. besides i dont like to spend other people's money either. if u've gone out with me u would know that.. i will feel so guilty.... i guess i hafta start working again soon coz i'm starting to feel devilish again. my mum said i'm very high maintenance so i shall work......... i dont even like spending her money... kesian lah. i'm a horrible spendthrift though... used to take taxis all the time. pemalas haram. ok potential husbands now can be seen running like mad away from me. ahaha. n about marriage, i dont intend to marry till i get my degree (provided i dont start singing pro before that) or till i turn 25, whichever comes first.... that's a good 7 years from now..... so i'm relaxing now though itz kinda amusing when relatives ask wen itz my turn. juz now there was this grp of small kids possibly not older than 14 since they were wearing shorts who approached me.. i laughed n said sori dek, i'm at least 4 yrs older than u... guess itz the trend for guys to go out with older women huh. ahahahahahaha. i dont care.
and iiiiiiiiii will always love uuuuuuuuuuu..haha.like tarzan. or jane. watever.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
twenty-third january
aloooooooo..no school for me tomorrow because apparently i look like i have a balloon for a left eye... hmmmzzz.... on firday gotta go kampung melayu n look for the baju to wear on the eighth.... since they are paying i shall go all out n get the extravagant ones...but i swear i wont ever bow down to their wants and wear the cleopatra stuff...enuf alreadi... but i did look good actually...hehe..
my grandmother went mia today...so tmr if i have the guts to wear sunglasses frm morning to night i shall go on an espionage trip n run ard sg looking for her if she doesnt come home...nenek where r u!!!!!!!
ok this is getting lame... n kak lia yes yes i read ur comments....thank you... jgn kasi muke eh kak, nanti naik syiok pulak drg... when r we gonna have a girls' day out?? hafta admit we were quite mean to ju that day huh...
i still haven finished the preparations for the performance yet..but lotsa progress alreadi thank gawd... anyway, someone's ATTRACTED to me? now that's a first... thanks but no thanks....
ayu u r one boring blogger lah u... always telling some grandmother's story. ciao. more next time.
my grandmother went mia today...so tmr if i have the guts to wear sunglasses frm morning to night i shall go on an espionage trip n run ard sg looking for her if she doesnt come home...nenek where r u!!!!!!!
ok this is getting lame... n kak lia yes yes i read ur comments....thank you... jgn kasi muke eh kak, nanti naik syiok pulak drg... when r we gonna have a girls' day out?? hafta admit we were quite mean to ju that day huh...
i still haven finished the preparations for the performance yet..but lotsa progress alreadi thank gawd... anyway, someone's ATTRACTED to me? now that's a first... thanks but no thanks....
ayu u r one boring blogger lah u... always telling some grandmother's story. ciao. more next time.
Friday, January 21, 2005
twenty-first january
slamat hari raye aidiladha.... am listening to perfect 10 den dis song from 98 degrees came on.. long time no hear...here it is:
98 Degrees - I Do (Cherish You)
All I am, All I'll be
everything in this world
All that I'll ever need is in your eyes shining at me
When you smile I can feel
all my passion unfolding
your hand brushes mine
and a thousand sensations seduce me
Cause I I do cherish you
for the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If your asking do I love you this much
I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Til my dieing day
I do cherish you
for the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this toyou
If your asking do I love you this much
I do
isnt she lovely.....isnt she wonderful...amrican idol makes me laugh my socks off man...at least the auditions..
n i'm realli becoming a super bitch.. i guess i shd juz go along wif it, i dowan to hurt their feelings. if they know the truth, i'm better off dead.
98 Degrees - I Do (Cherish You)
All I am, All I'll be
everything in this world
All that I'll ever need is in your eyes shining at me
When you smile I can feel
all my passion unfolding
your hand brushes mine
and a thousand sensations seduce me
Cause I I do cherish you
for the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If your asking do I love you this much
I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Til my dieing day
I do cherish you
for the rest of my life
you don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this toyou
If your asking do I love you this much
I do
isnt she lovely.....isnt she wonderful...amrican idol makes me laugh my socks off man...at least the auditions..
n i'm realli becoming a super bitch.. i guess i shd juz go along wif it, i dowan to hurt their feelings. if they know the truth, i'm better off dead.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
eighteenth january
today i've been a horrible person. i dont know y but i've been a bitch. i was cursing and ranting and raving coz i had to stay in school for like.. 3 4 hours waiting for one damn bloddy history class n it turned out the teacher had already left skool. she assigned us work but the lab wasnt even booked. stupid or stupid? but now i feel bad coz she's pregnant and all.. ayu you bitch.
but i've been a good friend too! inez kinda broke down in skool. i'm glad i was there. bof of us sat on the toilet floor n she cried it out. den i was like..ermmm..inez...this toilet stinks to high hell..everyone has some shit going on right how. pity her.. told her there's nothing she can do but to pray i guess n hope for the best. n we kissed in front of shameer. wakakaka... coz inez n me were arguing about lesbians wif shameer ( there's this newbie in skool and he was saying that moz likely she's les)and we needed to prove the point so we were like..juz because we hold hands and hug each other doesnt mean we're lesbians.. n juz because we kiss each other like dis doesnt mean we're les... n we kissed!!!! ok..i'm fond of reckless behaviour. so wat. anyway syaqir n me were also arguing abt relationship stuff. it got to the point where i was flinging cushions. READ: IN THE LIBRARY.
can i do the job? project director? i'm seriously very tired already. i have many plans lah, but if there's no solid back-up i can go on planning till i die but nothing's gonna happen right. i wanna screw the year ones upside down sia.... am i fierce???????? no wat!!!!! the practice sessions are so relaxed they still wanna pull out. they aint seen nothing yet man. if they see the trainings i used to have they'll pee in their skirts. btw............... there are no cute guys. period. or is it because i've become blind?
anyway........i am exhausted sia............went out wif bebeh juz now, we hung out n toked cock. she's still as crazy as ever. nv changed. lup u bebeh. tomorrow i hafta conduct another practice session. i hope i can still smile at the end of it. the year 3s r cooperative thank gawd. i want to quit skool sia n rot at home. history will be the death of me. thursday going sentosa. probably will bake in the sun.
this is my timetable. u juz see how fucking stupid it is:
mon: hist hist break break lit lit HTP break ML ML P.E P.E
tues: break break break GP GP break break break lit lit hist hist
wed: lit lit break break GP GP HTP
thurs: ML ML P.E break GP hist hist break
fri: break GP GP break MLA MLA
can u juz see how dumb it is? arsehole. n now it seems like the only subject i take is history. which i'm too shagged to go n read up for. sleepy like fuck now. but still gotta go do the mindmap shit so gawd help me!
my sister is one bloody fool. she threw away my spectacles. i was supposed to go send it for repair coz the screw came out but she threw the damn thing away. i want to skin her alive.
now that i think of it i was an utter bitch in 2004. n i dont think things r gonna change.. things happen for a reason. all i know is that i have always been truthful, at least in that aspect. n i guess i trust him. so letz leave it at that.
yawn. what the fuck am i saying? oh..right. history. damn.
but i've been a good friend too! inez kinda broke down in skool. i'm glad i was there. bof of us sat on the toilet floor n she cried it out. den i was like..ermmm..inez...this toilet stinks to high hell..everyone has some shit going on right how. pity her.. told her there's nothing she can do but to pray i guess n hope for the best. n we kissed in front of shameer. wakakaka... coz inez n me were arguing about lesbians wif shameer ( there's this newbie in skool and he was saying that moz likely she's les)and we needed to prove the point so we were like..juz because we hold hands and hug each other doesnt mean we're lesbians.. n juz because we kiss each other like dis doesnt mean we're les... n we kissed!!!! ok..i'm fond of reckless behaviour. so wat. anyway syaqir n me were also arguing abt relationship stuff. it got to the point where i was flinging cushions. READ: IN THE LIBRARY.
can i do the job? project director? i'm seriously very tired already. i have many plans lah, but if there's no solid back-up i can go on planning till i die but nothing's gonna happen right. i wanna screw the year ones upside down sia.... am i fierce???????? no wat!!!!! the practice sessions are so relaxed they still wanna pull out. they aint seen nothing yet man. if they see the trainings i used to have they'll pee in their skirts. btw............... there are no cute guys. period. or is it because i've become blind?
anyway........i am exhausted sia............went out wif bebeh juz now, we hung out n toked cock. she's still as crazy as ever. nv changed. lup u bebeh. tomorrow i hafta conduct another practice session. i hope i can still smile at the end of it. the year 3s r cooperative thank gawd. i want to quit skool sia n rot at home. history will be the death of me. thursday going sentosa. probably will bake in the sun.
this is my timetable. u juz see how fucking stupid it is:
mon: hist hist break break lit lit HTP break ML ML P.E P.E
tues: break break break GP GP break break break lit lit hist hist
wed: lit lit break break GP GP HTP
thurs: ML ML P.E break GP hist hist break
fri: break GP GP break MLA MLA
can u juz see how dumb it is? arsehole. n now it seems like the only subject i take is history. which i'm too shagged to go n read up for. sleepy like fuck now. but still gotta go do the mindmap shit so gawd help me!
my sister is one bloody fool. she threw away my spectacles. i was supposed to go send it for repair coz the screw came out but she threw the damn thing away. i want to skin her alive.
now that i think of it i was an utter bitch in 2004. n i dont think things r gonna change.. things happen for a reason. all i know is that i have always been truthful, at least in that aspect. n i guess i trust him. so letz leave it at that.
yawn. what the fuck am i saying? oh..right. history. damn.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
sixteenth january
aloooo..today i'm feeling good. mainly because the gp project is over n done with, the oral presentation went well...i managed to make people laugh n i even got commended..hooray hooray. she said i'd scored very high points for confidence n coz i didnt depend on my notes. she said obviously i wasnt afraid of speaking to an audience. juz then mark showed that laz slide for the presentation. it read: ayu, the singer.
the class was laughing coz they know me..i'm crooning every single moment that i get a chance to. the other day i turned the com lab into a recording studio. people in class that i hardly tok to were like...wow. terence said i'd better join sg idol the next time round. then i was like...the a levels lah....then he was like...hu cares!!!!!! u'll do well in singing wat. u can always go back to ur studies later. make the big bucks first! i wish i had that kinda confidence. so really this blog n what i write abt my singing here is actually a booster for my confidence when it starts to get low. terence made my day when he said...join lah!!! then i can tell my frens...hey, i knew that girl...
although it was probably for selfish reasons, i hafta thank him..it was incredibly flattering to me n i got to thinking maybe i have more supporters than i think i do. i hate to let people down but i dont know...all the auditions i didnt turn up for, all the offers i turned down.......................
anyway anyway...cny i'm performing..one of my fav songs. i LIKE!!!!!!! hope it goes well.
this is one helluva song that i used to get fairuz to sing when he was stil in skool.
amazed-lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE!!!!!!!!!
the class was laughing coz they know me..i'm crooning every single moment that i get a chance to. the other day i turned the com lab into a recording studio. people in class that i hardly tok to were like...wow. terence said i'd better join sg idol the next time round. then i was like...the a levels lah....then he was like...hu cares!!!!!! u'll do well in singing wat. u can always go back to ur studies later. make the big bucks first! i wish i had that kinda confidence. so really this blog n what i write abt my singing here is actually a booster for my confidence when it starts to get low. terence made my day when he said...join lah!!! then i can tell my frens...hey, i knew that girl...
although it was probably for selfish reasons, i hafta thank him..it was incredibly flattering to me n i got to thinking maybe i have more supporters than i think i do. i hate to let people down but i dont know...all the auditions i didnt turn up for, all the offers i turned down.......................
anyway anyway...cny i'm performing..one of my fav songs. i LIKE!!!!!!! hope it goes well.
this is one helluva song that i used to get fairuz to sing when he was stil in skool.
amazed-lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
twelfth january
tried to get the tix for the match on sunday juz now, but didnt get them.... then when i got home my dad said i should have juz bought them, he'll reimburse me..haha....idiotic me.. coz initially i was kinda wavering on whether to buy or not coz i was afraid he'd not let me go....nvm, juz will go there on sunday n buy it direct if possible.... fuck, u know i havent eaten rice for a week... more like CANT actually...been sticking to like...finger food for the paz week. i noe i will drop dead before the week is over. but i puke everytime i eat rice.... inez said mebbe i have gastric flu or some shit like that. but i eat wat!!!!!!!!
okay someone juz pissed me off big-time the other day... some guy from wan's camp saw my pic on his hp... btw wan is this guy i hung out wif during the recent holidays.... he's a moron btw. u noe how some people are trigger-happy? well he's exactly like that, only his weapon of choice is his handphone. get the picture? (pun totally intended) so anyway, this guy asked for my number and because of the many many guys that i'm in contact wif, (READ: NONE!) i decided to be an angel and gave him my number. well i didnt. wan passed it to him. did i mention he is a moron?? it went ok at first, i juz went a long with it lah, until it got to a point when he asked me what i was currently doing. i told him i'm at m.i, bartley campus.... then the bastard asked me...sec brape?
so i got irritated and told him i was in sec 1. then he was like..haha...wan told me you were 18. (at this point, you are to ROLL YOUR EYES) so i was like hahahahahahahaha.. (That's SARCASTIC LAUGHTER for ya) well...almost. MAY SEVENTH btw people.... hint hint hint hint hint. anyway he asked what do i do specifically, then i told him, i'm doing my a levels. then this bastard totally pissed me off when he said WAH U'RE SMARTER THAN ME SIA. what the fuck. that guy is such an egotistical idiot..... i guess he expected me to be the kind that's barefoot, pregnant and in the kitchen. at that point, it was bye-bye. i'm sorry if i'm being sensitive, but it juz goes to show what he thinks of women.. so what's his point, that i hafta be dumb before he'd want to get to know me? eh come on lah, emancipation has already occured. wake up from your dream lah.
ok now i hafta go look for lyrics for some song...cny, i'm performing btw..but its still in the early stages so the details r not out yet...not a solo performance tho. n i'm gg to be in the exco????????? okayyyyyyyy..that's surprising.
okay someone juz pissed me off big-time the other day... some guy from wan's camp saw my pic on his hp... btw wan is this guy i hung out wif during the recent holidays.... he's a moron btw. u noe how some people are trigger-happy? well he's exactly like that, only his weapon of choice is his handphone. get the picture? (pun totally intended) so anyway, this guy asked for my number and because of the many many guys that i'm in contact wif, (READ: NONE!) i decided to be an angel and gave him my number. well i didnt. wan passed it to him. did i mention he is a moron?? it went ok at first, i juz went a long with it lah, until it got to a point when he asked me what i was currently doing. i told him i'm at m.i, bartley campus.... then the bastard asked me...sec brape?
so i got irritated and told him i was in sec 1. then he was like..haha...wan told me you were 18. (at this point, you are to ROLL YOUR EYES) so i was like hahahahahahahaha.. (That's SARCASTIC LAUGHTER for ya) well...almost. MAY SEVENTH btw people.... hint hint hint hint hint. anyway he asked what do i do specifically, then i told him, i'm doing my a levels. then this bastard totally pissed me off when he said WAH U'RE SMARTER THAN ME SIA. what the fuck. that guy is such an egotistical idiot..... i guess he expected me to be the kind that's barefoot, pregnant and in the kitchen. at that point, it was bye-bye. i'm sorry if i'm being sensitive, but it juz goes to show what he thinks of women.. so what's his point, that i hafta be dumb before he'd want to get to know me? eh come on lah, emancipation has already occured. wake up from your dream lah.
ok now i hafta go look for lyrics for some song...cny, i'm performing btw..but its still in the early stages so the details r not out yet...not a solo performance tho. n i'm gg to be in the exco????????? okayyyyyyyy..that's surprising.
Monday, January 10, 2005
tenth january
i have only been able to be up for more than an hour today... haven't been to school for two days now..... got a bad case of food poisoning. i think it was because of the far east plaza incident..dunno lah... but i'm okay now. i remember after what happened in october last yr, i promised myself i'll never hafta eat/drink charcoal for the rest of my life. n yet, barely three months later, the doctor prescribed me some. N no, i didnt eat it. i only ate the other two pills. went to the doctor at 10 on thursday night. mamat called my mum at work and ask her to come home. i really didnt want to lah, but i think i was losing consciousness or something. from 6 to 10 that night, i puked 12 times. My whole body aches till now... i didnt eat at all for two days ( i cant even drink water without puking it out again) until laz evening when i managed to eat porridge w/o puking. but i think i'm almost well today...... yay.
man messaged me this morning asking to help with this cute jap-looking yr 1 girl he saw....hahaha... funny lah dat guy.
niwae, was at my frenster thingy juz now den i saw this thing someone posted... i dunno y but it was sooooooo sad so here it is.....
Chinie is a typical college girl who enjoys life tothe fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.JM is Chinie's boyfriend who works in a call center in Ortigas. He's always busy doing so many things. He only manages to reply to Chinie's texts when he gets off from work. One time JM received a message from Chinie:"hi baby! how r u? miss u! call me when u come home k?! tc! lovu!"JM ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is timefor him to go home from work."baby,i miss u already! did u eat yet?! take care when u go home! ill be w8ing 4 ur call. lovu!""baby,where r u?! u're not replying to my msg. well,ill b here w8ing for ur call! lovu!"JM reaches home and lay on his bed. The last thing he knew was he's reading Chinie's text.He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return Chinie's call. He can still hear his phone beep but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.When he woke up the next day, he remembered that he needed to call Chinie. He ignored the messages and dialed Chinie's #. No one's answering in her house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart."JM,why didnt u call just now? Chinie's been waiting for u!""Dad sorry.i was tired so i fell asleep.i called at home but no one answered.wher are u now?.""just wait for us at home"JM went to Chinie's house and much to hissurprised he saw a lot of people inside. Thehouse were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was greeted by Chinie's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.
"Chinie was waiting for u. she didnt go out with us coz she was waiting for ur call. she was killed las night by some robbers who came in here. she's gone JM, she's gone""Ma,Chinie texted me last night..how could that have happened?!"JM can't look who's inside the coffin. He can'tmove and it feels like his whole body is stuckedon the chair his seating. He wanted to cry but itseems that something is blocking his tears tofall down. He turn to his phone and read themessages of Chinie."baby, ill be w8ing for u to call. i wont go out with dad anymore!""baby, im scared. i think theres som1 downstairs. pls call me already!""baby, theyre here. wut if they kill me.pls call me. baby where r u? i need youhere now. please baby i can hear them come...""baby.... i love you!..."
He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Chinie is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thought about him.He stare at Chinie inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can't say anything. The only words he uttered..."My baby, i'm so sorry! If i'd known, i could have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!"
Well my point is...what's the point when she's gone. you didnt give a damn when she was still alive. Nangislah airmata darah tapi will she come back????? The thing is you don even need to say much. Juz the three words will do.
for me, i'd rather receive the same message everyday rather than never receive it again. so if u think u're other half is being irritating...... dont take her for granted.... Make an effort. Itz never too late...unless she's gone.
sayangnya harapan yang selama ini kubawa
hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi
kau pergi jua.....
setelah cintaku kini membara
belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
kau pergi tak kembali....
so y wait......................................... dont make the same mistake JM made.
although i'm saying that, i'm trying hard NOT to contact the person i love. Ironic, dont you think? I'm kinda resigned to it already. I dont even want to think of it anymore......y shd i when all it brings is tears? FRIENDS?????????????????? hahahahahaha.so easy for you to say.
i'm sorry but i'm not like other girls okay. What, do you think i change boyfriends every few months? Idiot.
man messaged me this morning asking to help with this cute jap-looking yr 1 girl he saw....hahaha... funny lah dat guy.
niwae, was at my frenster thingy juz now den i saw this thing someone posted... i dunno y but it was sooooooo sad so here it is.....
Chinie is a typical college girl who enjoys life tothe fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.JM is Chinie's boyfriend who works in a call center in Ortigas. He's always busy doing so many things. He only manages to reply to Chinie's texts when he gets off from work. One time JM received a message from Chinie:"hi baby! how r u? miss u! call me when u come home k?! tc! lovu!"JM ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is timefor him to go home from work."baby,i miss u already! did u eat yet?! take care when u go home! ill be w8ing 4 ur call. lovu!""baby,where r u?! u're not replying to my msg. well,ill b here w8ing for ur call! lovu!"JM reaches home and lay on his bed. The last thing he knew was he's reading Chinie's text.He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return Chinie's call. He can still hear his phone beep but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.When he woke up the next day, he remembered that he needed to call Chinie. He ignored the messages and dialed Chinie's #. No one's answering in her house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart."JM,why didnt u call just now? Chinie's been waiting for u!""Dad sorry.i was tired so i fell asleep.i called at home but no one answered.wher are u now?.""just wait for us at home"JM went to Chinie's house and much to hissurprised he saw a lot of people inside. Thehouse were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was greeted by Chinie's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.
"Chinie was waiting for u. she didnt go out with us coz she was waiting for ur call. she was killed las night by some robbers who came in here. she's gone JM, she's gone""Ma,Chinie texted me last night..how could that have happened?!"JM can't look who's inside the coffin. He can'tmove and it feels like his whole body is stuckedon the chair his seating. He wanted to cry but itseems that something is blocking his tears tofall down. He turn to his phone and read themessages of Chinie."baby, ill be w8ing for u to call. i wont go out with dad anymore!""baby, im scared. i think theres som1 downstairs. pls call me already!""baby, theyre here. wut if they kill me.pls call me. baby where r u? i need youhere now. please baby i can hear them come...""baby.... i love you!..."
He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Chinie is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thought about him.He stare at Chinie inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can't say anything. The only words he uttered..."My baby, i'm so sorry! If i'd known, i could have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!"
Well my point is...what's the point when she's gone. you didnt give a damn when she was still alive. Nangislah airmata darah tapi will she come back????? The thing is you don even need to say much. Juz the three words will do.
for me, i'd rather receive the same message everyday rather than never receive it again. so if u think u're other half is being irritating...... dont take her for granted.... Make an effort. Itz never too late...unless she's gone.
sayangnya harapan yang selama ini kubawa
hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi
kau pergi jua.....
setelah cintaku kini membara
belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
kau pergi tak kembali....
so y wait......................................... dont make the same mistake JM made.
although i'm saying that, i'm trying hard NOT to contact the person i love. Ironic, dont you think? I'm kinda resigned to it already. I dont even want to think of it anymore......y shd i when all it brings is tears? FRIENDS?????????????????? hahahahahaha.so easy for you to say.
i'm sorry but i'm not like other girls okay. What, do you think i change boyfriends every few months? Idiot.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
still second january
yes yes, i changed the template.... i dont really like pink actually.. but it was kinda fresh, so i took it...a more sombre look this year though.... i'm slllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeepy now..... actually i came online to look for something but now for the life of me i cant remember what it was... okie, shall leave u with another song....
i sang this song during the teachers' day event.... i loved that performance.. so honoured to be able to perform in front of an unexpectedly wonderful audience.
how do i live - trisha yearwood
how do i
get thru one night without you
if i had to live without you
what kind of life wld that be?
and i
baby i dont know what i would do...
i'd be lost if i lost you
if u ever leave
baby u wld take away everything
gd in my life
n tell me now...
how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if u ever go
how do i ever, ever survive......
how do i
oh how do i live
without you
there'd be no sun in my sky
there wld be no love in my life
thre'd be no world left for me
and i...
i need you in my arms
need you to hold
you're my world
my heart, my soul...
if u ever leave
baby u wld take away everything
need you with me
baby coz u noe tt u're everything
gd in my life
n tell me now..........
hey... was looking thru some stuff n i found lyrics to this malay song i hope i'll be able to perform someday. itz kinda popular.
Laguku Untukmu - hasnol.
kehadiran membawa seribu erti
terasa bagaikan suatu mimpi
indah mahligai yang kita bina
impian kini terlaksana sudah...
tiade ku terlintas akan terjadi
kita kan terpisah jua akhirnya
sejenak ku terfikir segala
oh keindahan bersamamu
C/o: kembalilah kasih kepada diriku
hidupku sepi tanpa kehadiranmu
dengar rayuanku jeritan batinku
masih dahagakan kemesraanmu
hanya kau yang kucinta tiada kedua
usah biar kumenderita....
setelah kau pergi tiada kembali
pilunya tak dapat kumenggambarkan
abadi kasihku yang amat suci
biarku yang dalam kegelapan
dengarlah dendangan laguku untukmu
suara hati lambang suci murni
berat saatku dilamun rindu
setelah lama dikau pergi
kasihku....
i once had a boyfren who actually went to a lot of trouble trying to get to know me and my love of music better even though he didnt noe a single thing then... the last i heard of him, he joined a dikir barat grp n became the juara himself. we were together when we were 12 (tween 'love'), n again when we were 16... but i asked him to let me go coz i was in love with someone else. if ever i find a guy like that, i will NEVER ever make the same mistake again.
i sang this song during the teachers' day event.... i loved that performance.. so honoured to be able to perform in front of an unexpectedly wonderful audience.
how do i live - trisha yearwood
how do i
get thru one night without you
if i had to live without you
what kind of life wld that be?
and i
baby i dont know what i would do...
i'd be lost if i lost you
if u ever leave
baby u wld take away everything
gd in my life
n tell me now...
how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if u ever go
how do i ever, ever survive......
how do i
oh how do i live
without you
there'd be no sun in my sky
there wld be no love in my life
thre'd be no world left for me
and i...
i need you in my arms
need you to hold
you're my world
my heart, my soul...
if u ever leave
baby u wld take away everything
need you with me
baby coz u noe tt u're everything
gd in my life
n tell me now..........
hey... was looking thru some stuff n i found lyrics to this malay song i hope i'll be able to perform someday. itz kinda popular.
Laguku Untukmu - hasnol.
kehadiran membawa seribu erti
terasa bagaikan suatu mimpi
indah mahligai yang kita bina
impian kini terlaksana sudah...
tiade ku terlintas akan terjadi
kita kan terpisah jua akhirnya
sejenak ku terfikir segala
oh keindahan bersamamu
C/o: kembalilah kasih kepada diriku
hidupku sepi tanpa kehadiranmu
dengar rayuanku jeritan batinku
masih dahagakan kemesraanmu
hanya kau yang kucinta tiada kedua
usah biar kumenderita....
setelah kau pergi tiada kembali
pilunya tak dapat kumenggambarkan
abadi kasihku yang amat suci
biarku yang dalam kegelapan
dengarlah dendangan laguku untukmu
suara hati lambang suci murni
berat saatku dilamun rindu
setelah lama dikau pergi
kasihku....
i once had a boyfren who actually went to a lot of trouble trying to get to know me and my love of music better even though he didnt noe a single thing then... the last i heard of him, he joined a dikir barat grp n became the juara himself. we were together when we were 12 (tween 'love'), n again when we were 16... but i asked him to let me go coz i was in love with someone else. if ever i find a guy like that, i will NEVER ever make the same mistake again.
second january
itz a new year...new start to everything hopefully. i hope i don judge people based on hearsay, n i hope the same goes for me too........ but then again itz hard trying to escape from being toked about... itz like a mini hollywood in school sometimes... try as u hard as u can to escape the 'limelight' but itz kinda futile... anyway, undoubtedly 2004 was a memorable year, albeit a trifle painful.... but i did learn new stuff, i got back into performing (yayayayayay) n i fell in love....woohoo.... lotsa people ask if i regret the whole saga... abt me n ***** lah.... but honestly, i dont. dont get me wrong, itz not like what you think.. but then again only me and ***** know exactly what happened. i dont owe anyone any explanations anyway.. itz our life. anyway u cant choose who u fall in love with...if u could, life would be a lot simpler... BUT BORINGGGGGG!
hey anyone watched sister act 2: back in the habit the other day? i like it coz it kinda voices my thoughts abt singing.
if u wanna be somebody
if u wanna go somewhere
better wake up and pay attention
there's this part in the show where lauryn hill says exactly how i feel abt singing right now.
" I might wanna sing, but it aint gonna happen so watz the point? welcome to the real world sista."
and then there's this part where whoopi goldberg was telling her abt dis writer bla bla... she said sum stuff abt u being a writer if the first thing that u think of when u wake up is writing...... so wen she said that if the first thing u think abt (or do) when u wake up is singing, then u're a singer, it made me feel like....yeah, i should do this man...
and then reality hits me again. n i'm like..u r kidding urself.. u're not even that good. so stop dreaming. it makes me exasperated sometimes... seems like there aint nothing that i can do right. i mean, when i'm a bit older i guess i could be a singer somewhere... but i dont wanna juz sing in some club or hotel. maybe i'm ambitious but i dont settle for mediocre stuff when it comes to singing. it gotta be good. n the fact is that i'm not the sort who can do a desk-bound job. performing has always been my thing. dikir barat kinda introduced me to performing to a larger audience and i'm grateful for that, but i wanna do something on my own.
it kinda sucks lah, everything...... my love life sucks. i'm going nowhere career-wise.. darn. r&b/soul...... will i ever get to hear myself on radio.... i will cry my eyeballs out the day that happens................. i'm really thankful for those who have been supportive of me singing n all..... i hate to let u ppl down but here in singapore i gotta face it, the odds r against me...i dunno, i guess i'll see how things go this year.
i remember i made a promise to myself once that i'd stop drinking if i found someone i truly loved. i've stopped, for many months now. I'll stop smoking if i find that love again, n if my career takes off. i dunno whether it'll happen though. 2005..wait n see.
hey anyone watched sister act 2: back in the habit the other day? i like it coz it kinda voices my thoughts abt singing.
if u wanna be somebody
if u wanna go somewhere
better wake up and pay attention
there's this part in the show where lauryn hill says exactly how i feel abt singing right now.
" I might wanna sing, but it aint gonna happen so watz the point? welcome to the real world sista."
and then there's this part where whoopi goldberg was telling her abt dis writer bla bla... she said sum stuff abt u being a writer if the first thing that u think of when u wake up is writing...... so wen she said that if the first thing u think abt (or do) when u wake up is singing, then u're a singer, it made me feel like....yeah, i should do this man...
and then reality hits me again. n i'm like..u r kidding urself.. u're not even that good. so stop dreaming. it makes me exasperated sometimes... seems like there aint nothing that i can do right. i mean, when i'm a bit older i guess i could be a singer somewhere... but i dont wanna juz sing in some club or hotel. maybe i'm ambitious but i dont settle for mediocre stuff when it comes to singing. it gotta be good. n the fact is that i'm not the sort who can do a desk-bound job. performing has always been my thing. dikir barat kinda introduced me to performing to a larger audience and i'm grateful for that, but i wanna do something on my own.
it kinda sucks lah, everything...... my love life sucks. i'm going nowhere career-wise.. darn. r&b/soul...... will i ever get to hear myself on radio.... i will cry my eyeballs out the day that happens................. i'm really thankful for those who have been supportive of me singing n all..... i hate to let u ppl down but here in singapore i gotta face it, the odds r against me...i dunno, i guess i'll see how things go this year.
i remember i made a promise to myself once that i'd stop drinking if i found someone i truly loved. i've stopped, for many months now. I'll stop smoking if i find that love again, n if my career takes off. i dunno whether it'll happen though. 2005..wait n see.
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