LIARRRRRRRRRRRR

i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him

I hate YOU.

damn mothafuckas. hypocrites.

alamak

oops..havent blogged for so long... dunno wat to say la these days...lack of happenings.... hmm..went to cut my hair yesterday and mah permed hers..then today i'm going with ain to go perm hers.... i think i should probably set up this service where i accompany lonely ladies to the salon... yeah right. and die of boredom there... dunno whether i wanna change my hair colour over the hols..cant really be bothered to keep changing it...

these days i dunno what to feel about most matters. i suppose the only thing i can do is wait and see. kinda exasperating how things are sometimes but i guess i hafta put up with it la. not much choice though if i had the chance i'd like to run away from it all and start anew where preconceived notions about me are not gonna take place. kinda makes me sick sometimes. i know i'm not a saint either but i know where to draw the line.

so yeah... hope for the best.

yesssss

hahahahahaha...so damn happy, the last night filled with paranoia about my supposedly missing PI, culminated in me finding that it was always there. and then this morning mrs koh said it was good. yay. worth my lack of sleep.

hmmm....dont have much to say these days, just been bz with schoolwork and stuff...... no social life, unfortunately.... met mamat coincidentally the other day when i was with bebeh at techno. i could have been abitch and totally embarrassed him by calling him and asking about him and his girlfriend. but of course i didnt. there have been so many instances when i could have embarrassed the hell out of people but i chose not to. what for, other than momentary glee i dont gain much else.

so yup.... gtg to toa payoh again today, hopefully it doesnt rain again. but i've finished my schoolwork, even malay so i'm kinda relaxed now. except for investiture. damn it.


yawn.

EIGHTEEN

Tomorrow morning at 6.20 am i shall be 18. as in told bebeh just now, doesnt make that much of a difference to me other than my being able to get fags a whole lot easier now.

anyway, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!!! =)

one last cry

i think like this song, i've cried my last tears. but i dunno how things are going to work out between me n him because we are after all friends...but it cant be any worse than this right.

one last cry - brian mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry
Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lieI know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....
I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down...
To my last cry...

break

have two free periods now so godeh-ing the computer in the library as always.... hmmmm..he seems pissed with me..gulp. but then again it was my own doing so i apologise...really sorry dear. this isnt a good explanation but itz that time of the month.....sowieeeeee...as if u read my blog ah.. well soon enough la. when u're out of camp. the 13th i think. which means you cant celebrate my birthday with me....but u can call right..otherwise it'd juz totally suck man, mean, u not being able to leave camp this weekend of all days... bah.

by the way for the extremely uninformed, my birthday's this saturday.. which is the



7th of May. 7th of May. 7th of May. 7th of May.


but i'm not doing anything this year lah. so old already. Juz go out n eat with my family i guess. No clubbing, not into it. N honey, i'm so sorry u were denied the chance of hearing me sing. Next time i promise. Miss ya darling. Heh. N i've not met a sweeter guy than u in ages...really love the ermmm... innovative??? way u apologised to me. now, if only u'd look at me when we talk, that'd be perfect. hehe. hugs.


i'm toking absolute nonsense. hafta go over to toa payoh stadium today. i'm scared. but itz inevitable. thank gawd for you. u're a godsend. dont be angry with me anymore ok. miss ur nonsense. wanna talk to u too.

bah

back from school...damn tired la..... went to go check out some stuff at tm wif amy first.

well we've gone out... letz just say he didnt wreck it..though for the life of me i dont know why he was talking to himself all the time, cant even look at me....kinda weird, coz the last time i saw him he was this chirpy fellow then yesterday soooo ermmm...weird?

anyway...yesterday afternoon i was in town with amy then i was supposed to go meet him in pasir ris before he books in but somehow the plan changed and the sweet darling that i am ( although never appreciated) i went to bukit batok, near his place...took the car and rounding2 the area, went to the bukit gombak quarry thingy (it is a quarry right....?) and juz talk2 la. interesting, compared to watching movies all the time.... and he was a perfect gentleman. well cant say that i know him much but so far he's all right.... juz that i'm a bit irritated that the time i spent with him was equal to the time i took to reach home...but it was ok lah. though weird. did i mention weird?? i dunnolah, he was acting funny.... so stiff....sorry if it was my fault though :)

dunno whether i'm gonna see him again soon but yupz....nice guy.