black

oh well. what can i say. over.

s-i-n-g-l-e


kinda blank about it now but sometimes i find myself tearing up easily about the most trivial matters.

comes with the whole situation la, but still quite overwhelming, seems a a tornado just ran through my brain my heart my life and uncovered all these things, pain that i thought should have healed but i guess not. they're raw and bleeding again.


my bad probably. should not give my heart to anyone else for the time being. but who am i to say.

woooopsie

itz my fault.... i had him but i didnt appreciate him....n now he's almost gone. but i will do whatever i can to convince him i never intended to treat him or the relationship lightly... itz not that i dont care...i do, very much.. i juz didnt noe how to show it.



but now i do. if u'd give me another chance to prove it.

enough is enough

think that's enough songs for today.

to tell you the truth i'm a little overwhelmed by everything... they invited me to a gig today but dont think i can make it. sorry guys.

i wish i could say i'm very happy now but i'd be lying. things are a lot better now undeniably, but there are still some things bothering me. well, you cant please everyone *shrug*

my break is almost over. shall be getting money over the weekend hopefully. so on monday taklah kering sangat... dotn think i need to buy anything urgently so the money shall go towards spending time with baby while we can still meet up often.

he takes really good care of me, i'm amazed. i think coz i'm used to doing stuff on my own and not really bothering about myself, so it comes as a big surprise how concerned he is about me. the good thing about him is he knows when to be serious. but he cracks me up anyway. heh. there are still some issues that we need to work out but i dont know, i foresee this as a long-term comitment. itz still early but we're both working on our relationship. we've got major exams this year so we're taking things but i dont think that's a good reason to neglect each other.

what do i like about him.....

his smile
the way he kisses me
how he feels
how he tastes
his hugs
his humour
when he wipes my tears
balance between friends and me
selflessness
independent yet manja
honesty

and what i like is we're growing to love each other. no hurry, no rush, there's respect and communication is getting better everyday. just cut down on your smoking la dear. i'm trying too.

told ya i'm free...too free maybe

alahai...looking for songs that the guys keep singing...coz my brain is infested with those songs right now. shooo!!!!


RADJA - JUJUR

Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
dapatkah kau memberiku satu arti
sedikit rasa yang bisa ku mengerti
bukan sumpah atau janji
buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta
setulus hatimu bisa menerima
sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
bukan sekedar bersama

jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
jauhi diriku
lupakanlah aku

jujurlah padaku
bila kau tak lagi suka
tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
selamanya


gawd help me.


i want to hold your hand - beatles

Oh yeah, I'll tell you something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand.
Now let me hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
It's such a feeling that my loveI can't hide,
I can't hide,
I can't hide.
Yeah, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.
And when I touch you
I feel happy inside.
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide,
I can't hide,
I can't hide.
Yeh, you've got that something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll feel that something
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand,
I want to hold your hand.

yes darling i understand perfectly what you're saying. Now can you please stop dancing with the broom :)

i'm freeeeee

got nothing to do for the next two periods so i shall flood my blog with stupid entries.. bear with me. heh.

cake - i will survive

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you’d done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you’re back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second
You’d be back to bother me
Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I’d crumble
Did you think I’d lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I’ll be alive
I’ve got all my life to live
I’ve got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah
It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I’m trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I’m not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you’d just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I’m saving all my loving
For someone who’s loving me

and so now the new song is ( courtesy of my baby ) :

Radja - takkan melupakan mu

Oh terindah, lagu yg terindah

Sengaja aku cipta untukmu yg terindah

Semoga dapat meluluhkan segala keraguan

Semoga dapat menghancurkan kerasnya batu prasangka

Aku takkan melupakanmu

Takkan meninggalkanmu

Takkan menduakan cintamu,ku bersumpah

Aku tak ingin mengingkar janji

Tak ingin menjadi duri

Tak ingin menjadi api cinta yg membara
Rebahlah kau di pelukku

Lepaskan resahmu

Bebaskan jiwamu

Dari prasangka-prasangka burukmu

Dari kerasnya batu curiga

Aku takkan melupakanmu

Takkan meninggalkanmu

Takkan menduakan cintamu, ku bersumpah

Aku tak ingin mengingkar janji

Tak ingin menjadi duri

Tak ingin menjadi api cinta yg membara
Senyuman melati

Sambutlah mentari

Raihlah cintamu

Hari ini

weird stuff happening lately. nvm, nice and slow........

seventeenth

well... yesterday wasnt a good day for me. wasnt feeling well. still not reali very good now but much better than yesterday.

last night was okay, not much happening. think i'm meeting him again today, sooner or later just show to mami la, easy... so he doesnt hafta keep sitting at the void deck. heh. poor baby.

i noe wat ur weakness is!!!!!!!!!



anyway, i miss uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.


u better stop pinching me ah.

haus aku

so much has happened since i last posted an entry.... to keep u up-to-date on my life...welllllll if u're meant to know what recently happened u would have known la...


ala me damn worried now. hope u get better soon baby.... make sure u eat ur medicine.. should be taking care of urself instead about worrying abt me.

but i do appreciate everything u've done for me, i realli do.. kesian you jalan all the way back from pasir ris. tt's y i cried btw.. felt so guilty.. u batok darah lagi.


baby... i'm so thankful we found each other. i know there are lotsa differences between us and some ppl might think itz odd and repulsive, but i hope we can make it thru.

thank you for loving me dear. awwwww.... maybe today shall go to ur place to see how u are.

miss you laling.

u make me a very happy woman.

n i know u like being thirsty.

seven times darling.... tsk tsk tsk.



oh n i dont know
i dont know what he's after
but he's so beautiful
such a beautiful disaster
and if i could hold on
thru the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster




aku tak akan meninggalkanmu
tak akan menduakan cintamu
ku bersumpah


last night i realised without really meaning to, i've become serious. abt u. abt us. i think i might love you too. when i think back, sometimes i feel like i really deserve someone like you, after all the crap tt's happened over the past few years. but sometimes i cant believe u're mine. but u are..... and i'm yours.

i'll always be your valentine, sweetheart.