30th november - post written 12.39pm

so it's been a while since I last wrote. I noe it's pretty silly to filter your own blog but reading my past year's ramblings really was driving me quite mad. So, updates, updates. Life has been pretty much kind to me nowadays, keeping busy with work and friends and the like. I dare not immerse myself into anything right now although as I say this I noe it's a blatant lie because there's you now.

Yes, this time it's different.

20 days since we officially became 'us'. So far, you've been really good to me. There are times when I question myself, whether I deserve you and this. My friends say that Ive suffered so much, that it's time I enjoy being loved. My friends are too kind. I know i'm not such a good person, that some of the things that happened to me, I had them coming. It's still very much a push-pull kinda reaction when it comes to you. too good to be true, and too good to let you go. I'm learning to accept the fact that you're here to stay. By now u would have known that I'm in love with you.

So fast? How do you quantify these kind of things? how do you quantify feelings? All I know is that he makes me happy, and I want to see him happy. No need for any more tears.


I cant say I dont have expectations. I think after all we've been through in our separate lives, there has to be expectations. Especially when you intend to spend your whole lives with each other. I think it's important that we learn to meet each other halfway though. I have got to be more patient, and keep reminding myself he's not like them. Bear with me please love through this.

I love the little things you do. These things are the ones that will make me stay in love with you over the years... Dont ever change.

That said, it really is quite early too say too much. I hope we keep our promise to each other to ride out whatever comes our way and to make sure we stay strong together.


I thank God that I have you and I realise now why I had to wait thru all the crap. Without that, I wouldnt be able to appreciate your presence. So I thank Allah for sending you to me, and I pray I will always deserve you and make you happy.


Looking forward to many more days of laughter and love with you.