twenty-seventh december

went to sentosa today.. havent updated my blog for awhile now. wasnt home much lah. anyway, this is the song i'm falling in love with..itz the kind of song that u love more and more each time u hear it... itz by mariah carey and brian mcknight too... i wonder why i never heard it earlier... I LIKE!!!!!!! haha... gawd, my knees are about to buckle from too much walking.... been out too much. tmr i shall be a good girl n stay at home. n i'm famished now man.... gotta go grab food before the grumbling starts to drown out the perfect 10.

whenever you call -mariah carey n brian mcknight

(Brian McKnight:)
Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
(Mariah)
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
(BM:) We can only turn into one
(Chorus, both) I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call

And I'm truly inspired (And I'm)
Finding my soul (Finding my soul)
There in your eyes (There in your eyes)
And you (And you)
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised

chorus

(BM) And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
(M) You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside

chorus.


i would die to record a duet like this. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. i'm positively aching to sing but i'm such a scaredy cat that it realli pisses me off. n i STILL dont do anything about it. DAMN YOU AYU.


anyway, while i was at sentosa i remembered what happened the last time i was at a beach, which was a few days before i went on holiday. i remember telling *** before that he'd better take care of his lips or NOBODY is ever gonna want to kiss him. i mean, they were peeling and i AM a good friend(right??) so i gave him advice....

then wen we were at the beach that night( it was quite romantic actually, sitting on a bench late at night staring out at sea (even though we couldnt see anything) and juz toking crap and laughing bla bla) he suddenly looked at me seriously and asked me whether his lips were kissable then... i was stunned for a moment coz i realised he was gonna kiss me. he juz looked into my eyes until i spoiled it by laughing it off like a maniac and punching his arm. N no, duh, we didnt kiss. it was sweet though earlier, when we walked along the beach with some guy's niece. someone commented that we looked like we were married to each other with a child..awwwwwwwww...

but what definitely wasnt sweet was when i met my campus' malay cikgu at genting highlands and he asked me if i came with my HUSBAND. how incredibly tactful of him.

i'm hungryyyyyy!!! anyway, there's a new ljs replacing the burger king at my place. havent had the chance to go there yet..will do so tmr mebbe. k lah wont membebel.. didnt ask u to read my blog anyway. ciao darling.

twentieth december

wow..the year has almoz ended.... anyway, this is one helluva song, by beyonce..... I LIKE!!!!!!!!!!


dangerously in love

baby i love u
u r my light
my happiest moments werent complete
if u weren't by my side
u're my relation
in connection to the sun
wif u next to me
there's no darkness i cant overcome
u r my raindrop
i am the sea
with u n god, who's my sunlight
i bloom n grow so beautifully
baby i'm so proud
proud to be ur girl
u make the confusion go all away
from this cold n messed up world

chorus
i am in love with u
u set me free
i cant do this thing
called life w/o u here with me
coz i'm dangerously in love with u
i'll never leave
juz keep loving me
the way i love u loving me

i noe u love me
love me for hu i am
coz years before i became hu i am
baby u were my man
i noe it aint easy
easy loving me
i appreciate the love n dedication
frm u to me
later on in my destiny
i see myself having ur child
i see myself being ur wife
n i see my whole future in ur eyes
tot of all my love for u
sometimes makes me wanna cry
realise all my blessings
i'm grateful to have u by my side

everytime i see ur face
my heart smiles
everytime it feels so good it hurts sometimes
to feel, to breathe, to love u
DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE.......




i went shopping AGAIN today...retail therapy is good, i recommend it highly.. mind the consequences though... i went to the music store fully intending to buy usher's cd ( kinda late huh?) but ended up wif mariah carey.... both r&b anyway.

i am thinking of u
in my sleepless solitude tonyt
if itz wrg to love u
then my heart juz wont let me be ryt

this used to be my trademark song in tkg... mariah carey of tkg, mr collin?? haha....

anyway, i bought shoes yesterday..then i remembered what the doc said the laz time i went to go check my foot. she said it was quite a bad injury n it will nv b as good as it was ( damn! ouch!) n she doesnt noe whether i'll be able to run again..she juz told me to try n run n c if i can tolerate the pain..if cannot, too bad, bye-bye track. i also remember the trainings in tkg..i was the only poor fella frm sec 1 in the sch team..n i had to run wif nora sometimes ( nora the ford supermodel thingy winner. nora with the endless legs. nora who almoz killed me. nora nora nora) but it was shiok lah, the people made the trainings bearable(such as wen i nearly fell off the steps at the national stadium, n wen we trained at the now defunct kallang practice track nxt 2 da netball centre).......... there was also this funny incident which happened after the nationals... i went back to school after my race to resume lessons ( had to..usually we tried to skip but dat day suay lah) n i juz wore my track stuff under my pinafore... obviously it was sleeveless right, n my pinafore doesnt have sleeves (duh) so it kinda looked like i wore nothing under my pinafore.... it happened to be a lab lesson under this guy, mr whatshisname... he kept staring at me from the front of the lab ( i was at the back) den he said loudly, rahayu, y r u not wearing anything underneath ur pinafore.. thank god it was a girls' school. bloody embarassing. so i went up to him angrily, and yanked at my jersey...haha....
track people were the closest to each oder, coz we were such a small community ( n we stole all the medals during sports day... :P) there wasnt such a thing as senior junior bullshit. i got to boss the seniora ard coz i was to be made captain the nxt yr (yay!) we were close also because we were in constant danger of being shut down...and it happened, coz in sec 2 it was dropped n we trained by ourselves...but it was difficult because the more enthu seniors had already left n so had mr d cruz... n so here i am, a fat slob in m.i..........


awwwwww.....wat a sob story.
eh... i'm damn boring sia...tok next time.

eighteenth december

suddenly i've got this thing for brian mcknight. black singers are the devil..... their voices r sooooooo sexy.


coz one you're like a dream come true
two, just wanna be with u
three, coz itz plain to see that you're the only one for me
and four, repeat steps 1 2 3
five make u fall in love with me
if ever i believe my work is done
then i'll start back at one........


i used to go nuts over this song when it first came out. i STILL love it.


STILL- brian mcknight
funny wen u stop n think, time goes faster than u blink
but nothing's ever like it was
but girl we've got a special thing n all the happiness it brings
is more than enuf

i noe itz hard to believe you're still the biggest part of me
all i'm livin for

chorus:
i still think abt u
i still dream abt u
i still want u
n need u by my side
i'm still made abt u
all i eva wanted was u
u're still the one
u're still the one

itz hard to breath wen we're aaprt
u're like sunshine in my heart
i keep u here inside
u've been everything to me
u've been n always will be
the apple of my eye

i noe its hard to believe u're still the biggest part of me
all i'm living for

chorus

if u love me look into my eyes n say u do
i've been waiting all my life for someone just like u
n after all we've been thru
girl i'm still in love with u
n i want u to noe i do..... I DO......



i used to love this particular person a lot. he once told me that he couldn't make eye contact with people sometimes. he should have known that my eyes, the eyes that have cried so much for him, would have shown him what my mouth couldnt utter. shown him THAT I LOVE HIM.

eighteenth december

honey i'm hoooooooooooooooome!!!!!!!! it was a cool five days i spent holidaying.... and i mean literally cool, or cold, rather. it was like 13 degrees in genting.... i became a seven yr old again, climbing over railings and such. my vogue act went down the drain. the one day that i tried to be a bit more glamourous was a huge mistake coz i took the viking and dis horrible roller coaster which i swore was trying to throw me off n made me swear like hell. AND I WAS WEARING A SKIRT. i wore jeans to dinner and a skirt to go on the freaking rides. dumb as hell ayu.


n sadly there was not a single eye-candy there... i wasnt in the mood anyway. o ya, the kl hotel room was gorrrrrrgeoooouuussssss..... the decor was like...wow. anyway, itz ard 12 now, juz woke up... n i have this horrible tan from swimming. dunno wat else to say except that before i left for genting someone gave me a shouck. a huge one. anyway, i'm back, so contact me y'all, before boredom kicks in again.

6th december

shit forgot to tell u guys...will be away from the 13th to 17th....yay...eye-candy please!!!!!!
and o yeah..read the malay papers dis morning n i found out the talent management co. i turned down is the one managing aqmal...well u noe, the anugerah guy....

shot myself in the foot there, didnt i? but nvm...perhaps itz an indication tt bigger thints r to come my way..itz only fair, right.....


haha..wishful thinking

wishing and hoping.............. *fingers are crossed* but i dont believe in that shit. hard work is what gets u to the top.. and bloody good contacts. which i turned down. bummer.

6th december

yooohoooo..... heyaz... went on a date today...hehe... a really weird one.. ok it wasnt a date to me lahzz..dunno abt the other party though..... muahahahaha.... get out u scumbag coz guess wat?? ayu's in da houz once more....

n itz payback time.





but somehow...shit..am i leading him on or something... but then again... i AM entitled to my share of fun right....n hell, i feel gooooooooooddddddd. i got him...i got him all right. ayu, one point for ya...

third december

aloooooo... the past few days have been like... WHOA!!!!!!!!! went out a lot...i watched SAW... i hate you akbar for making me watch that show!!!!!!! at least i exacted my revenge by making one of ur sleeves longer than the other...argghhhhhhhh... i still havent watched shutter yet..damn.wan asked me today but i feel malas lah... some other day lah.

still havent been on a proper date lately... bored like hell. maybe i shd have juz gone wif wan to the movies. damn. alah dunno wat to say now..... more next time.