second november

so itz fixed. i shall be slaving another year of my life at this skool, gettting my ass ready for the a's....... blank on whether itz good or not..i did get promoted, not merely advanced so there's the wow factor there...anyway here's what miss ng wrote to me:

hello! you've got guts,courage. Not many can say that of themselves. You've overcome obstacles others do not have the courage to face. Take 2004 as one where the 'Ayu' I know triumphed. That is true strength. There will be other tough patches, take this year as a sign- knowledge; that, there's something, something special in you. SMILE -!


can i just say that she is one sweet lady? i never thought myself as a strong person but more and more i'm realising that people think i am.. well those that dont think i'm a slut anyway. i think i've had it up to here with all the lies guys give me. i am sure to give u one swift kick in the ass the moment there's a hint of a lie that you're attempting to tell me and i swear after what i've been through, i am not lying. yes i still love ***** despite knowing that he is one gutless idiot, but that's all there is to it. i love him but i do not wish for whatever happened between us to reoccur. but i won't say that it will never happen again because we can only plan but God determines it, but it sure hurts a damn lot. the blood tests yeah, but the emotional pain is superb man, i tell u... y the hell do the teachers think i'm some prodigy? i'm such a slob..i never studied since psle, seriously..i pay attention just enough to barely scrape through every year. i thought well...this year this is it, your luck runs out girl but no!!!!!!!!!! i guess i suffered enough during the relationship n all that it wasnt right for me to suffer anymore...hahahaha. absolute crap ah? but for those who dont believe in me i'm going to grab hold of that mass communications degree and shove it up your ass where the sun dont shine babe.... and when i want to do something i will do it. so dont get me hot and bothered boy because it sure aint a pretty sight when this girl gets pissed.... (though i cool down easily :P)

my ass hurts from the gym workout, man.... havent gone there in years...but shiok lah, sweating it out..... must do it more often.