mrs koh called me this morning. she asked whether i had other plans.... i was thinking hell yeah..only if i had the courage and confidence to see it thru. actually i'm kinda tired from all this hypocrisy. so what if i'm smart... doesnt mean i hafta slog my whole life doing things i dont give a damn about... and the things i give a damn about, or people too, i dont have... i'm kinda muddle-headed now...starting to feel the effects of the medicine.
sometimes i wish people would just leave me alone. dont ever feel like going back to school. this saturday i'm going for the audition unless a better plan comes up. damn tired of this farcical lifestyle i have. i dont give a damn abt lit or hist like i used to anymore.
the only two things that i'm freakin sure of right now whether you like it or not is that i wanna sing and that i am still very much in love. even the details to those two i'm not very sure or proud of.
havent gone to skool this week. today i read my hist file at home, though my mind definitely wasnt registering anything. did the usual household stuff, washing the clothes, hanging them out to dry, washing the dishes, cook the rice, fry some stuff, sweep the floor..... may as well get married.
have a feeling this will be a sucky year for me. lotsa my tkg frens have dropped out of skool... n they're the smart ones. as in reaaaaaallly smart. sigggggggggggh.
got to thinking this funny thing the other day... u noe how mums sing to their babies right... well at least i wont be out of tune when my turn comes.... gawd how cheesy ayu!
love is a funny thing.
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