tenth january

i have only been able to be up for more than an hour today... haven't been to school for two days now..... got a bad case of food poisoning. i think it was because of the far east plaza incident..dunno lah... but i'm okay now. i remember after what happened in october last yr, i promised myself i'll never hafta eat/drink charcoal for the rest of my life. n yet, barely three months later, the doctor prescribed me some. N no, i didnt eat it. i only ate the other two pills. went to the doctor at 10 on thursday night. mamat called my mum at work and ask her to come home. i really didnt want to lah, but i think i was losing consciousness or something. from 6 to 10 that night, i puked 12 times. My whole body aches till now... i didnt eat at all for two days ( i cant even drink water without puking it out again) until laz evening when i managed to eat porridge w/o puking. but i think i'm almost well today...... yay.
man messaged me this morning asking to help with this cute jap-looking yr 1 girl he saw....hahaha... funny lah dat guy.

niwae, was at my frenster thingy juz now den i saw this thing someone posted... i dunno y but it was sooooooo sad so here it is.....

Chinie is a typical college girl who enjoys life tothe fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.JM is Chinie's boyfriend who works in a call center in Ortigas. He's always busy doing so many things. He only manages to reply to Chinie's texts when he gets off from work. One time JM received a message from Chinie:"hi baby! how r u? miss u! call me when u come home k?! tc! lovu!"JM ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is timefor him to go home from work."baby,i miss u already! did u eat yet?! take care when u go home! ill be w8ing 4 ur call. lovu!""baby,where r u?! u're not replying to my msg. well,ill b here w8ing for ur call! lovu!"JM reaches home and lay on his bed. The last thing he knew was he's reading Chinie's text.He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn't able to return Chinie's call. He can still hear his phone beep but he's too tired to take a glimpse on the message.When he woke up the next day, he remembered that he needed to call Chinie. He ignored the messages and dialed Chinie's #. No one's answering in her house. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart."JM,why didnt u call just now? Chinie's been waiting for u!""Dad sorry.i was tired so i fell asleep.i called at home but no one answered.wher are u now?.""just wait for us at home"JM went to Chinie's house and much to hissurprised he saw a lot of people inside. Thehouse were so lighted but you can see the gloom on every person you'll meet there. He was greeted by Chinie's mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.

"Chinie was waiting for u. she didnt go out with us coz she was waiting for ur call. she was killed las night by some robbers who came in here. she's gone JM, she's gone""Ma,Chinie texted me last night..how could that have happened?!"JM can't look who's inside the coffin. He can'tmove and it feels like his whole body is stuckedon the chair his seating. He wanted to cry but itseems that something is blocking his tears tofall down. He turn to his phone and read themessages of Chinie."baby, ill be w8ing for u to call. i wont go out with dad anymore!""baby, im scared. i think theres som1 downstairs. pls call me already!""baby, theyre here. wut if they kill me.pls call me. baby where r u? i need youhere now. please baby i can hear them come...""baby.... i love you!..."
He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It's true that Chinie is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thought about him.He stare at Chinie inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can't say anything. The only words he uttered..."My baby, i'm so sorry! If i'd known, i could have fought for you! i'm really sorry! I love you so much!"


Well my point is...what's the point when she's gone. you didnt give a damn when she was still alive. Nangislah airmata darah tapi will she come back????? The thing is you don even need to say much. Juz the three words will do.
for me, i'd rather receive the same message everyday rather than never receive it again. so if u think u're other half is being irritating...... dont take her for granted.... Make an effort. Itz never too late...unless she's gone.

sayangnya harapan yang selama ini kubawa
hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi
kau pergi jua.....
setelah cintaku kini membara
belum sempat kucurahkan kasihku
kau pergi tak kembali....

so y wait......................................... dont make the same mistake JM made.



although i'm saying that, i'm trying hard NOT to contact the person i love. Ironic, dont you think? I'm kinda resigned to it already. I dont even want to think of it anymore......y shd i when all it brings is tears? FRIENDS?????????????????? hahahahahaha.so easy for you to say.


i'm sorry but i'm not like other girls okay. What, do you think i change boyfriends every few months? Idiot.