eighteenth january

today i've been a horrible person. i dont know y but i've been a bitch. i was cursing and ranting and raving coz i had to stay in school for like.. 3 4 hours waiting for one damn bloddy history class n it turned out the teacher had already left skool. she assigned us work but the lab wasnt even booked. stupid or stupid? but now i feel bad coz she's pregnant and all.. ayu you bitch.

but i've been a good friend too! inez kinda broke down in skool. i'm glad i was there. bof of us sat on the toilet floor n she cried it out. den i was like..ermmm..inez...this toilet stinks to high hell..everyone has some shit going on right how. pity her.. told her there's nothing she can do but to pray i guess n hope for the best. n we kissed in front of shameer. wakakaka... coz inez n me were arguing about lesbians wif shameer ( there's this newbie in skool and he was saying that moz likely she's les)and we needed to prove the point so we were like..juz because we hold hands and hug each other doesnt mean we're lesbians.. n juz because we kiss each other like dis doesnt mean we're les... n we kissed!!!! ok..i'm fond of reckless behaviour. so wat. anyway syaqir n me were also arguing abt relationship stuff. it got to the point where i was flinging cushions. READ: IN THE LIBRARY.

can i do the job? project director? i'm seriously very tired already. i have many plans lah, but if there's no solid back-up i can go on planning till i die but nothing's gonna happen right. i wanna screw the year ones upside down sia.... am i fierce???????? no wat!!!!! the practice sessions are so relaxed they still wanna pull out. they aint seen nothing yet man. if they see the trainings i used to have they'll pee in their skirts. btw............... there are no cute guys. period. or is it because i've become blind?

anyway........i am exhausted sia............went out wif bebeh juz now, we hung out n toked cock. she's still as crazy as ever. nv changed. lup u bebeh. tomorrow i hafta conduct another practice session. i hope i can still smile at the end of it. the year 3s r cooperative thank gawd. i want to quit skool sia n rot at home. history will be the death of me. thursday going sentosa. probably will bake in the sun.

this is my timetable. u juz see how fucking stupid it is:
mon: hist hist break break lit lit HTP break ML ML P.E P.E
tues: break break break GP GP break break break lit lit hist hist
wed: lit lit break break GP GP HTP
thurs: ML ML P.E break GP hist hist break
fri: break GP GP break MLA MLA

can u juz see how dumb it is? arsehole. n now it seems like the only subject i take is history. which i'm too shagged to go n read up for. sleepy like fuck now. but still gotta go do the mindmap shit so gawd help me!

my sister is one bloody fool. she threw away my spectacles. i was supposed to go send it for repair coz the screw came out but she threw the damn thing away. i want to skin her alive.

now that i think of it i was an utter bitch in 2004. n i dont think things r gonna change.. things happen for a reason. all i know is that i have always been truthful, at least in that aspect. n i guess i trust him. so letz leave it at that.


yawn. what the fuck am i saying? oh..right. history. damn.